S.N.A.K.E. Look closely!

It’s March 4th ("March forth!") A few years ago I was headed to Washington D.C. on this day. Unbeknownst to me, I would be joining the truckers in their “People’s Convoy” around the loop. It was my honor. I am for the people! So many are not, even though they don’t realize it.  

I’ve been doing a blog series on self care versus a distorted and dangerous teaching of the biblical principle “die to self.” As a part of the Common Ground Sound Project, I focus on the micro and the macro, the micro being the personal and family level of relational issues, and the macro being the national and political level of relational issues. 

In today’s blog I’m going to talk about something that I can’t unsee. In February of 2023, I was listening to worship leaders Jonathan and Melissa Helser. Melissa gave a testimony about a dream she had. In the dream she was having trouble getting a contact lens to fit in her eye. Finally, the Lord said to her, “You don’t need another lens. I’m going to heal your eyes.” I know the Lord was also speaking this to me. He had also been speaking to me nonstop about self care. 

Almost immediately this healing began. It began by me envisioning this “energy” around me that was not at all attractive. I called it my “pigpen energy.” It was made up of frustration, anger, agitation, impatience, and harshness. As the healing continued, I saw that a lifetime of tolerating narcissists in my life, and specifically the lying, false narratives, and gaslighting of these narcissists was a reality and had to stop. I had to learn that I attracted narcissists with a "come (mostly uninvited) with my cape to save the day" mindset. Narcissists love this foolish mindset because they know they can exploit it in several ways. This whole "pain cycle," as the psychologists call it, had driven me a bit mad over the years. I created the album cover for The Other Side to somewhat mimic a mad hatter, but a mad hatter who was looking into a painting that represented getting back to who she was as a child. (Matthew 18:3) 

I learned that you can’t become childlike until you understand what is robbing it from you. Through endless hours of counseling, listening to podcasts, and reading, I finally understood that I was a frustrated codependent who continued to enter relationships with narcissists. Once my eyes had been opened (healed) to the cause of my “madness” being narcissistic abuse, I then began to see something so clearly in the political arena. 

I see Donald Trump as a political mad hatter, so to speak, infuriated by the lying, manipulative gaslighting, and narcissistic abuse from the left politicians and deep state elites, and specifically the narcissism of Barack Obama and all who are connected to him. Here’s my last acronym for this blog series. This acronym can be used to spot a SNAKE! (Narcissist) It’s not easy. Your eyes have to be healed, and still, you have to look closely, but once you see it, you can’t unsee it. 

S. 

Silent superiority is a sure sign.

N. 

Navigating covertly by saying what people want to hear.  

A. 

Admiration is possessed through a mysterious power, fooling people to win them over. 

K. 

Keenly able to pull off a victim narrative while operating in extreme cruelty. 

E. 

“Empathy” only for the sake of serving oneself through a hidden agenda. 

I’ve gotten new marching orders for The Common Ground Sound Project, and as I close this blog series out, let me tell you, I can’t wait to make the transition to this new direction! 

Take care of yourself.

Jill