This is the final blog in this series, and as promised, I’ll do my best to put it all "on the table.”

Here’s the deeper “deeply loving” reason I’ve written these two blog series...

So, what’s this “deeply loving” reason you’re writing all this, Jill?” I’m glad you asked. 

I was lying on the ground with my hands clinging to the limestone when a dark circle came over and surrounded me. It wasn’t dark clouds. I knew that because the temperature didn’t shift.

I kept saying this to my former husband, “Two people telling each other what the other one is doing wrong is like two dogs chasing each other’s tail. What we need to do is go to our corners and chase our own tails until we catch them!"

My former husband/childhood friend is not evil. Not even close! He is a good guy, and I mean a really good guy! So, what’s the problem...

I sat with the third counselor in a row and heard the same thing repeated again. It wasn’t until that third time that my mind finally let it actually register. “You are not the narcissist in this picture; your husband is.”

The first time I ran into my former husband in adulthood, he was pushing tidy little white lines of cocaine around on a black tabletop...

There is just something about the mesmerizing white lines of an interstate or highway that seems to lull me into a certain kind of freedom I can’t resist.

With all that disclaimer out of the way, I’m now going to shamelessly gurm the crap out of a well known guitar player named, Will McFarlane.

So, I found myself sitting with my guitar in hand in the big middle of this iconic room...

My last album was all about reconciling relationships and mending divisions. One of the main responses I got from that album ...

I’m going to do my best to summarize my conclusions in this last blog of the blog series, In Christ, Alone.  My thoughts say: “I know my...

I MIGHT AS WELL HAVE SAID, "LET ME GRACE YOU WITH MY HOLY PRESENCE AND HELP YOU OUT HERE." UGH! THAT'S JUST REAL, AND REALLY EMBARRASSING.

YOU SIMPLY SAY NO TO THE TAP ROOT OF CODEPENDENCY. AND THIS IS ME SAYING NO… 

CODEPENDENCY IS NOT THE NOBLE WORK OF A COMPASSIONATE PERSON... IN FACT, IT IS A DESTROYER!

IF I HAVE NOT LEARNED TO LOVE, I AM NOTHING.

I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, NEED YOU TO BE HONEST WITH ME THROUGH THIS. DON’T HOLD BACK.

BUT I KNEW I HAD TO IMMEDIATELY STOP THAT, AND TURN THE WEEPING TO GOD, AND GET REAL ENOUGH WITH MYSELF TO HONESTELY ASK HIM...

"I SAW MENTAL ILLNESS AND NARCISSISM IN JILL, AND I AM CONCERNED SHE'S GOING TO DESTROY YOU, STAN."